Sunday, March 27, 2005
i really wish i could be happy again. sadness and....those horrible feelings are filling up my life. i... ii... dunno what exactly to do, what exactly to say..
-collapsed-i only know how to cry. cry all those shits out. nobody can understand how hurt i feel.. nobody to talk me to sleep, nobody to wake me up in the morning, nobody to appreciate my stupid face, nobody to hug me to sleep, nobody to find 101 ways to make me smile anymore. i've never loved someone like how i love you before. it's like a big big tree trunk flew thru my heart..
hais. i just simply feel like dying. doing nothing, just sleep to death. i dont wanna think!!
but i truly believe, if we're meant to be, God will preserve both of us. if im faithful, God will honour me. i pray for courage to accept what has come my way, pray for endurance and tolerance. amen.